Sometimes I wish I had never heard of calories.
This Friday, Emily over at Beauty in Christ posted about, among many other things, the anxiety of going out to get a Sonic milkshake, and how bravely and beautifully she was able to let that anxiety go.
I love Sonic milkshakes, but I don’t know if I have the courage to go out and get one.
I think of myself as mostly recovered from anorexia. And I am. Mostly.
But I also have a very good memory. And that means that I still remember how many calories are in…not everything…but probably 75% or more of foods that I eat on a regular basis.
I looked up those numbers on the Sonic milkshakes a few years ago, and I just can’t forget them. If I were to sit down and drink one, that number would jump up in my brain, bouncing around and clattering pots and pans until I went insane.
Not only do I know how many calories are in a Sonic milkshake, but I also know how many calories are in:
- a banana
- an apple
- an orange
- an ounce of peanut butter
- an ounce of dark chocolate
- 1/2 cup cottage cheese
- whole milk vs. skim milk (vs. 1%, 2%, chocolate milk and almond milk)
- a Reese’s peanut butter cup
- an avocado
- a slice of mozzarella (vs. a slice of cheddar or a slice of muenster)
- a large egg (vs. an extra large egg or a jumbo egg)
- a tablespoon of mayonnaise
- an ounce of raisins
- 1/2 cup of oatmeal
- a tablespoon of brown sugar
- 4 ounces of pasta
- a medium-sized muffin
- a can of soda
- a glass of lemonade
- a tablespoon of mustard
- a bratwurst
- 8 ounces boneless, skinless chicken breast
- 1/4 cup uncooked rice
- a large sweet potato
- pumpkin pie (vs. banana cream pie vs. blueberry pie)
- I’ll stop there.
And I’ll tell you something. When you have all those numbers there in your brain, it’s really hard not to think of them. Kind of like not thinking about your parents’ home when you think of your parents. Or not thinking of desks and classrooms when you think of school. And I do try, very hard.
There are, thank goodness, a few things for which I don’t know the calorie content, like:
- pizza (varies enormously)
- chia seeds
- French fries (Yup. Don’t know, don’t wanna know.)
- General Tso’s chicken
- hard cider
- refried beans
- the chocolate-peanut clusters I can buy sometimes in bulk food sections
- chicken nuggets
- coconut flour (Can I confess a secret, though? I don’t like coconut flour.)
Do you like coconut flour?
Name three foods for which you don’t know the calorie content. (If you have to think hard to come up with three, like I just did coming up with this list above, that’s a warning.)