I’ve had a busy weekend! There was a huge music festival in Fort Collins this weekend called New West Fest. It goes Friday, Saturday, and Sunday, with five different stages and over 80 bands, including a couple big names. Merchants set up tents selling everything from tie-dye to solar panels, and food trucks and local food vendors sell all kinds of fair fare. Saturday morning, I also did a Fort Collins Cycling Club ride, which they sponsor every year to raise money for a member of the club who was paralyzed in a cycling accident a number of years ago. I did the “intermediate” option, which was objectively not that far but the farthest I’d ridden in a long time. It was a beautiful route through the foothills northwest of Fort Collins. I decided not to lug the camera on the ride, but I’ll need to get up there with the camera sometime.
All Saturday after the ride, I was a very hungry caterpillar.
Between going out to eat with friends, chomping on festival food, and being more hungry than usual, I of course ate more than usual. I think I maybe overshot my hunger some on Saturday night, although I was also very bloated from my IBS, which makes it hard to tell.
I know that for many of my readers, and for me at one point in my life, eating more than usual and feeling very full can be quite upsetting. It can feel like panic, like you have to do something to reverse this mistake. Which then leads back into habits like dieting, “detox” cleanses, overexercising, and various other forms of ignoring your body.
But as I wrote about recently, eating more than usual is normal, even if it makes you feel a little crummy.
This is what I do after I eat more than usual: I eat again when I’m hungry and stop when I’m full.
Often, though, my hunger levels are about the same as usual. And so I eat the same amount as usual: for me, three square meals and a number of snacks.
And what do I eat? I eat what’s convenient, and I eat what sounds satisfying. Whether that’s a salad or gummy bears.I’m not going to pretend like this is easy for someone with anxiety around food. Did I have anxiety this weekend? Sure; I just don’t act on that kind of anxiety anymore.
Still, I find it ironic that anxiety can make things seem so incredibly difficult when they really are so incredibly simple.
Linking up with Amanda to share these thoughts for Thinking Out Loud Thursday.
Do you struggle with anxiety? What’s something that your anxiety makes waaaaaaaaay more complicated than it needs to be?